Man these Winter blues have me in the dust. This is probably so far one of the hardest years of my life and it has just begun. I was talking to a friend at the bus stop today that I hadn’t seen in a while. I was trying to tell him how dismal things are lately and the first thing he said to me was, "Worrying about finding someone to buy you alcohol?" What? Ok, thanks, man. Yes I know I'm not 21, thanks on its own page, but why assume I don't have problems? Shit, I miss the days when all I had to do was worry about finishing a paper at SOME point during the weekend and then, set my sights on finding someone to buy alcohol for the weekend. And it really was a shitty day if i couldn't find someone to buy it... those were good times.
Here I am crying about not even being 21, but yet, the world can fill my pockets with bullshit. If I had a penny for my sorrows, i might have enough money to pay for one of the various bills that are probably overdue.
But what i cant figure out is if it really is Winter blues? I mean, I had my fair share of flux to deal with in the summer, but why, oh why, does it seem like 2009 is taking a shit on me? Could a little sunshine actually fix this? Could a little sunshine pay bills, fix friendships, or maybe possibly put a good word in for me with a second job?
And then, amidst all that, I cant even buy a drink at the end of the night. And its $2 dollar pitcher night..